Why?

As busy as I am, I still want to write something today.I don't know if its going to be long or short but it'll be a thoughtful piece.
It's ridiculous how many people I've told about my situation and still, after them asking me if I'm doing any better, I still don't understand how they know.I guess I keep forgetting. I feel like my mind and personality have returned to me, but I'm still frail and susceptible and afraid of getting hurt. I've lost my self-confidence and footage.. what I've built myself up to be the past few years has just crumbled and dissipated into thin air. I just want to be in my old life again.